my heroes have always been cowboys July 19, 2008

why do the ones who feel the most detached from their personal destiny, the ones who feel they have the least control of their own lives, always compensate by relentlessly demanding control of someone else’s?

is the delicate balance between striving for something greater than themselves, and completely surrendering to the forces far too daunting? are we a nation of sociopaths? is it perhaps an epidemic?

i’m beginning to understand the iron skin of the great wanderers and why they wear their gun outside their pants. there is no proper explanation to satisfy the content. there is only the time between a skipped heartbeat. there is only love.

i just watched my guitar disappear down the street in the back of a pick-up. it may have been a bold move for my empty morning stomach, but i know that music cannot be possessed, it can only be shared. i think i might sell my shoes by the end of the day.

you broke my heart silvestre March 26, 2008

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 11:11 AM

do you suck my dick silvestre.

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

um…

ive only been to texas once. i didnt suck any dick there, im afraid.

have a lovely day, silvestre.

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 1:07 PM

why you afraid

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

i’m not. it’s a figure of speech.

have we met?

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 1:13 PM

what happen to you silvestre.

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

i was falsely accused of trying to smuggle diamonds in on a flight from west africa. spent six months being detained without a lawyer. took the help of my congressman and a little muscle to get out. im spending time with my family before the summer tour starts in europe silvestre.

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 1:23 PM

can yoube my boyfriend yes or no silvestre.

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

the real question would be, can you be my boyfriend silvestre.

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 1:28 PM

yes or no silvestre.

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

its all or nothing with you texans. geesh.

no, i suppose not silvestre

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 1:32 PM

why you say that please say yes ray silvestre.

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

okay, yes ray silvestre

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 1:42 PM

i was looking for your pictures of you silvestre.

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

so what do we do now that were boyfirends?

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 2:19 PM

SEX SILVESTRE.

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

you’re not even gonna get me drunk first?

whatever.

my place or yours silvestre?

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008 2:32 PM

oay we could go out if want too come my town texas silvestre.

From: ray
Date: 26/03/2008

ive been thinking about us a lot latley and i dont think were good for each other silvestre. it seems you have only one thing on your mind, which is fine, but im looking to share my dreams with someone silvestre.

ill miss you silvestre. we’ll always have the good times silvestre.

goodbye silvestre

From: silvestre
Date: Mar 26, 2008

wher going i talk too you p. s. i love you so much silvestre.

step out into the light, the light February 28, 2008

portland is for lovers February 26, 2008

feeling the space January 16, 2008

Hate is just an awkward way of love. We spit on people when we want to kiss them. We hit them when we only want to be held. We talk about misunderstanding and hurt. But how could we hurt or misunderstand each other when we are so much alike, when we are the only people who share this world for this decade, this year, this day, under the same sky? Deep down inside, and far outside, none of us really misunderstand anything. We don’t miss a trick. We know. But we all pretend to ourselves and to others, that we don’t.